whisky & come

You should be a programmer. Or a composer.

2004-07-20T20:36:08Z

I'm feeling young. Not young, but Jung.

A K Wendland just told me the greatest thing about my art today. In such a lovely way.

there's not enough to say

2004-06-22T05:20:02Z

dodgeball was depressingly awful. it made me feel like shit. or was that the pot i smoked? i hate films.

YAY!

2004-06-22T00:49:16Z

holy jesus fucking christ on the first day of summer
kkclohessy just moved to arcata muthercukfing california and emailed me
living with tomorrah
fuck fuck
fulick
likc my ****

this is the best news since mary moving to the northwest for midwifery school. my girls are the best girls.

ludakristen @ 2004-04-24T05:33:00

2004-04-24T11:33:37Z

tonight was a super, duper eighties party at ryan's house.

i told kyle earlier today that we need to take things slower. i don't want to hurt that fucking boy. he says he doesnt't understand why i wanted to take things slower.

ludakristen @ 2004-02-01T01:00:00

2004-02-01T08:00:47Z

whisky makes me feel better but it makes my eyelids heavier over time

and that defeats my life purpose

which is...

drink as much coffee and caffeinated beverages as possible
and stay awake all hours of time
but

alcohol is love juice.

anywyay 1:35 a.m.
i'm watching wolves doing it doggie style on animal planet
and i just wanted to document this one thing for myself

thursday night, asleep
2:30 a.m. police come a-knockin' on the door nextdoor, goin'
"police! search warrant!"
and they were doin' this for a few minute before the people came and answered
the door
and the people came out
a girl up against my door breathin' heavy was askin what
was going on and
the Fat cop said they were "lookin' fer drugggggs"
and so one guy got arrested
and at least one room got raided
and so they got evicted the next day
and they cleaned out their room that same day
and that day my bike got stolen.
and snowdown was that day (Friday)
and i got home from school before dark that day
and the motel manager axed me if i had a bike out in front of my room
and my bike wasn't there the day after the raid nextdoor
and that same day, snowdown,
friday,
yesterday,
an ambulance came up to the motel,
and took an old lady out on the stretcher
and into the ambulance
in the evening.

and this afternoon, the day after,
and two days after the drug bust,

the ambulance
or "meat wagon" if you use slang,
came and took that same androgynous old person
out into the ambulance
and took them away

and now i've been typing it's 1:4 1a.m.
and i'm not done drinking
and i'm NEVER done dirnking

an

this is silly, but i must do it,

2004-02-01T07:53:33Z

like all things i do.

Your Discordian Totem Animal is Buckminster The
Naked Mole Rat. Like Buckminster Fuller but
more naked and slimey.

Your Discordian Totem
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man.

i don't mean to be a 'dork', or a 'geek' or anything, but i love animal planet

i mean cable tv is a lot of stimulation and animal planet is like the channel i can stand watching the longest "word"

comedy central is ok 30% of the time

canadian mist whisky is ok 98% of the time.

ludakristen @ 2004-02-01T00:16:00

2004-02-01T07:16:39Z

i want an oatmeal raisin cookie

i got bad grammer and spelling

2004-02-01T07:04:33Z

iwish iwish iwish i was a fish
actually i wish i was a crocodile
they're way smarter
and they're vicious too.

everyone's cheating

ludakristen @ 2004-01-27T01:59:00

2004-01-27T08:59:11Z

what was i about to say?..

sooooo

2004-01-23T05:42:40Z

drawing a beautiful naked woman who is a friend of yours who you can relate to in a few ways...

is nothing compared to drawing your nude lover

as cliched as drawing your
nude lover
is

but drawing her tonight was good practice. she put on these tall ass black hooker boots and spread 'em for me. what a crazy pose. the bottom of my foot itches and my shoes are too tight. i had a lot of coffee and i'm really jittery. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i think i need a shower.

omg nigga don't be so goddamn self ish

2004-01-17T04:36:08Z

whiskey ownz

ludakristen @ 2004-01-15T22:43:00

2004-01-16T05:43:27Z

im not articulate

ludakristen @ 2004-01-04T20:59:00

2004-01-05T01:59:45Z

i wanna get a big tittie mermaid tattoo on my bicep

ludakristen @ 2004-01-02T20:40:00

2004-01-03T01:41:48Z

i hate feeling like a failure. it seems like such a self-defeating emotion, but i don't know how else to feel. i feel pressure from everyone and everything sometimes. i'm a stupid fucker. and a creep.

last night i had a dream that i was rrreal effed up on something. i was at some club. cameron left this letter he had written to me on a table. it was sewn-together paper, like a scroll. there were little pictures that he had drawn all over it.. it was kind of like written and drawn as if he was a little kid. anyway, it said he was sorry on it, in a bunch of different ways. he was sorry about a bunch of stuff. like how he's been treating me. and i was all effed up, i couldn't hardly talk or walk. chris was there. he was smiling, and he was leaving.

the night before that i had a dream that i found a guy's head in my bed with someone. just some guy's decapitated noggen.

i decided that
all my dreams are living my fears,
and all my fears are living my dreams

it's hard to be someone's friend when all you want to do is fuck them. not that that's relevant to my life, or anything.

all my other dreams are living my fears, but

2003-12-28T16:27:18Z

i fell in love with a made-up boy in my dream two nights ago...

ludakristen @ 2003-12-13T14:43:00

2003-12-13T21:43:21Z

i want to be amazed at what i ~~can~~ do

ludakristen @ 2003-12-10T16:03:00

2003-12-10T23:03:02Z

sometimes i feel like a really slow, old macintosh computer

ludakristen @ 2003-12-03T20:56:00

2003-12-04T03:55:58Z

bus ticket depart dec 26th from royal oak mich arrive in charlotte nc, rnd trip back in royal oak jan 3 -- $167

ludakristen @ 2003-12-03T01:14:00

2003-12-03T08:14:50Z

i hate these loud uncomfortable mattresses. why does it sound like there's a helicopter directly overhead my apartment room? i french kissed mary today and it made me feel good.

ludakristen @ 2003-06-21T13:08:00

2003-06-21T19:08:54Z

this morning at 5:45 a.m., cam and i went to the center of southwest studies to see this solstice window dealie make a shadow on the wall. i guess that was the mark of summer. i thought it was pretty cool, esp. because of the free continental breakfast. mm, free strawberries and orange juice. then we went back to bed and woke up at 12:30, thus missing the farmers market :[

i love the smell of sunscreen. it reminds me of being in mexico.

today we'll probably go hiking and hot springing. yow!

ludakristen @ 2003-03-31T08:31:00

2003-03-31T15:31:09Z

going to utah was sweet. there were thirteen other people with me. we went to arch canyon and did a dayhike sunday and saw cathedral arch and angel arch. canyons make me chlostrophobic. we hiked 6 miles saturday and 9 miles sunday. the desert gets really freakin cold at night and in the morning before the sun peaks around the canyon walls. chris and i saw a documentary/biography on ram dass last night at the abbey theatre.

ludakristen @ 2003-03-22T10:36:00

2003-03-22T17:36:15Z

You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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last night, chris and i started watching cannibal! the musical. then i played dance dance revolution... we took kevin to the thrift store before that, so that he could get pants and a shit..

it's strange that the only place to get powdered hair bleach is in farmington, 45 minutes away.

i am going to look for jobs again today. i've inquired at four places and put three applications in so far.

looks like next year i'll live on campus in the apartments. i need a job so i can support my lil hobbies.

ludakristen @ 2003-01-21T00:19:00

2003-01-21T07:19:41Z

"free bird" is a great song.

i got a midnight to 3 am radio show.

ludakristen @ 2003-01-20T14:39:00

2003-01-20T21:39:56Z

i'm feeling hurt.

ludakristen @ 2003-01-05T11:46:00

2003-01-05T16:46:31Z

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